Straight No Chaser

[note: do not let the previous entry mislead you. you are not nothing, you are too close to everything and i am feeling meaningless and that maybe what you say isn't really what you mean? and i am getting too wrapped up in your beautiful words, so i was trying to perhaps downsize them to make myself feel like i'm not obsessing. i am bre and i am stupid and i tend to listen to everyone else's opinion.]

::violently shaking due to multiple pill popping::

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into a million pieces. sing until there's no more music. Laugh until there's no more laughter. Drink until there's no more liquior. Get sucked in by a few beautiful words that put you to sleep at night and awaken you in the morning. Build your world around them until you see they have no meaning. Meant to charm until you're charmed and then go astray and then to bleed the blood of a girl who wasn't good enough. And all those shinging smiles, nearly kisses, memories many shared under that night time sky fade away with the burning out stars and seep into the darkness of cold night. That's all that girl is, another light in an endless universe of them. Nothing IMPORTANT. NOTHING EXTRAORDINARY, NOTHING LESS THAN MEDIOCRE. Can't sing because there's no more music. Can't laugh because there's no more laughter. Can drink because there's no more liquior. All she can do is

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I haven't had much inspiration for anything until now, but now I feel like I can talk and think and be whatever i want all because of you. I can look up at the stars [anywhere, anytime] and know that you're under the same sky with that distant look in your eyes. And I hope you know how much it means to me, I really do.

Laying near the water and we're looking up again
I could swear the smoke in the air spells: Heaven.
No constellation compares to you.